Today was supposed to be ” the best day of my life “, the day I got to marry my best friend. The moment that I spent years on a podcast wishing and hoping for. Instead today is the day I am grateful for the air I breathe and the beat in my heart. This wedding was never about the white dress that is now locked in a store , and is probably too big on me (stress does what months of dieting couldn’t). It wasn’t about signing a legal document that gave me the title of wife and he husband, and it wasn’t about gifts, or food or the perfect tux. What it was about is sharing a true and genuine love that we have for each other with all our friends and family. We practiced our slow dancing and our PG kiss, but that was for everyone else. Unfortunately today because of social distancing and this virus that is just everywhere at this moment, we aren’t together in the same house. We do the normal face time and watch t.v. together like we do when we are home, and for now that will have to do. No one knows when this will end .. if and when we can return to normal or a new normal. The wedding has been pushed to August. If it were up to me it wouldn’t happen at all , but money was invested and I don’t think we can get that back. Although all the vendors have been super accommodating. Shout out to them. We’ve talked about doing justice of the peace once the state opens back up or we just wait 5 months and cross out fingers for normalcy. This feelings I feel about today are not about a broken dream, but more of a broken reality. My hopes and prayers are for everyone to stay safe and healthy. Love always win.
P. S. It technically rained on my wedding day, so that’s good luck right ?!?